tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-48617653889173489962024-03-20T23:28:14.252-07:00The "Wise One"Wiccan means "wise one" in Latin. Did you know that?
Anyway, welcome to my ramblings. Have a cup of coffee and stay awhile, you might find something worth hearing.Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.comBlogger52125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-14408226624935917852011-08-19T19:37:00.000-07:002011-08-19T19:37:00.334-07:00Lithium and laptopsI have a terrible habit of unknowingly suppressing emotion until it explodes inside of me. Then I'm left feeling depressed and hurt over things that happened months ago.<br />
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"I wanna stay in love with my sorrow,<br />
But, God, I wanna let it go."<br />
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Sometimes, I think songwriters that I've never met understand me better than I do lol. Well, I'm sure that no one wants to hear me whine about things that happened in April, so lets change the subject.<br />
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School is starting on Tuesday, and I MIGHT have a reliable source of money starting September. $15 to watch a kid three days a week. It's better than nothing, right? I could put that money towards a laptop, which I desperately need. I can no longer stand sharing a computer with my mother... privacy is something that's important to me. Don't worry, I don't have disturbing files on this computer, but I hate having her breathe down my neck. The computer is in her room too, so she usually kicks me out when I'm right in the middle of something. Even if that something is writing. "You have pencils and paper, Julianna. You can use those." *rolls eyes* I dislike writing with pencils and paper because I hate my own hand writing (seriously, it looks like I tried writing with my feet) and it's just easier to do it on a computer. You don't have to scratch things out or have to worry about eraser marks getting stuck to your clothing. <br />
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Anyway, back to laptops. A Dell Precision M4600 would be amazing, but the starting price is around 1,700... by the time I get that kind of money, they'll have an improved (and more expensive) model on the market. So I guess I'll have to go with this:<a href="http://www.dell.com/us/business/p/vostro-3550/pd"></a> <a href="http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16834230074">Asus K53</a><br />
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Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-89064551522416978632011-08-18T13:59:00.000-07:002011-08-18T13:59:05.363-07:00HURR DURR NRA DURRRI'm back... again. Sorry for not posting much, but I was stupid and forgot the fact that I had a blog. HURR DURR.<br />
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I was in Wisconsin all weekend for an orchestra retreat. The music I had to play for my quintet was so incredibly awful. For me, anyway. There was nothing melodic about my piece. At all. I understand that cello is nice and bassy, and perfect as a solid foundation... but damn it, Mozart. You could have at least written <i>Diveritimento </i>with a bit more melody for the cello/bass part. I was dying while I was playing... even on stage. The rest of the retreat was amazing and my group was hilarious. They put three redheads in the same hotel room... and the one girl who wasn't a "ginger" was complaining about having so much red hair in the shower drain. Ooops.<br />
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Oh, and an old friend of mine from Jr. High went on the retreat. It was exciting for both of us, because the last time we saw each other was December during the orchestra festival... and even then, we could only talk for a few brief moments. She kind of disturbed me... because she used to be a hardcore Democrat, but now she's a Libertarian? LOL, how does that happen? I was preached at about 2nd Amendment rights the whole first day... I eventually snapped when we were out for a snack at Culvers, and said to her face that most Libertarians are idiots (which is not like me at all, and I felt bad the next day lol... but it's kinda the truth). We then screamed at each other about politics, blissfully unaware that everyone was watching us. My oh my, have those nut jobs gotten to her... she sounds just like someone from the NRA.<br />
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Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-45129922596426706922011-07-16T17:50:00.000-07:002011-07-16T17:50:56.942-07:00I need to stop putting so many things into one postObviously, I haven't blogged in awhile. I wish I could day that it's because my life has been busy, but it hasn't been... just stressful. I don't want to go into too much detail.<br />
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So, I've been having these weird stomach cramps. It started on Wednesday during class. I didn't eat anything that could be bad for me the day before, and I barely had anything to eat that morning. The teacher was going over some stuff, and then my insides just decided to turn themselves into a knot. No, it wasn't menstrual cramps... trust me, I know it wasn't. I went on for an hour and a half, then it stopped and I didn't feel it again for the rest of the day... but I felt weird, like anything I ate would make me puke. And it's been going on every day since then. I'm pretty sure I'm not pregnant... I think I would remember losing my virginity. Could I be dying? I wouldn't mind that... that means I don't have to put up with humans anymore.<br />
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I'm going on a three-day chamber music trip to Whitewater again this year. I got my packet for it a few days ago and only three people I know are going. That means I have to be friendly with strangers... *shudders* Last year it was most definitely a step out of my comfort zone, but it was very rewarding in the end. I hope it will be like that this year. My music is fairly easy, but long... so many 8th notes. The rhythms will give me the most trouble, but nothing practice won't fix. I'm in a chamber group with two violins, a viola and a bass. Yesss!! I'm playing with a bass!! Woot woot!! I appreciate good bass players. If I can find a link to the music, I'll post it.<br />
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Hopefully, I will go to see the last HP movie soon. And my childhood will officially end.Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-59966049045418401482011-07-07T18:52:00.000-07:002011-07-07T18:52:04.643-07:00SHSI'm listening to Enya at the moment. I don't know why, but her music always makes me hate reality.<br />
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So, I'm taking a math course at SHS because I wasn't happy with my 2nd semester grade for Algebra. This was my first time being in SHS and was arguably the longest day of my life. It's so big and the rooms are unorganized and everything smelled like chlorine. I go to HEHS, and going there is like going to school in a box. Everything is stacked on top of each other and, even if you're new there, it's very easy to find something without asking for directions. SHS is just confusing and doesn't follow any particular pattern. It's a lot prettier than HEHS though... inside and out.<br />
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The worst part was that I didn't know anyone there. There were some people I recognized, but no one I could run over to and act like I was their friend, just for the sake of blending in. The teacher is nice enough, but it was obvious that she was just teaching for the money and didn't really want to be there. Neither did I, which probably means we'll get along alright. Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-88214464746114607832011-07-03T20:07:00.000-07:002011-07-03T20:07:37.249-07:00My uglinessSomeone I'm close to (or used to be, at any rate) whose going through what I consider a depression, told me a few days ago that he can see the ugliness in everyone. So I asked him "well, what's my ugliness?"<br />
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His answer was pride. He told me that everything I do is to show off, to make myself a center of attention. Being vegetarian, being Wiccan, being vocal about politics... in his eyes, I only do it for attention. This tells me just how much people misunderstand me. People who barely know me don't give me much attention, because they think I don't want it... people that I really open up to say I'm just constantly seeking. Neither is the case. Attention is nice, I won't deny that... but I don't constantly seek it either. I don't hide what I am for attention, I just want people to see me as me... the real me.<br />
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About the pride part... yes, I am <i>very</i> prideful. Not about what I do, but rather who I am and the freedom to be that person. Is that such a bad thing?<br />
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My real ugliness isn't pride. No, it's envy. Not just jealousy, down right envy... hatred of someone because they posses something I don't. I don't mean petty possessions, I could care less about those. I mean talents and personalities and lives. There are talents that I would die for, and lives that I would kill to have. Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-23792697363513191142011-07-01T09:33:00.000-07:002011-07-01T09:33:41.516-07:00I'm a fishI'm "working" on my stock project again. Muahahaha. <br />
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I played my cello for the first time in three weeks and I got a blister from it. The reason why I couldn't play it is because I had to wait to take it in for repairs... again. It's not even my fault, it's the friggin pegs that don't want to stay. And my hand hurts because I lost some of the muscle memory I had, as well as my callouses. <br />
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I'll probably go to the pool after school today... if my swimsuit still fits me. I've lost some weight, so I dunno... hopefully it does so I don't have to buy a new one. You know what's funny? I LOVE swimming and being in the water, but I hated the swim unit for P.E. The water is my happy place, and when a guy is yelling at me and telling me what to do, mentally I'm saying "omgf go die in a hole, let me do what I want." Especially when that guy is yelling about swimming four laps around the pool. Then I go into a mental rage. Anyway, it's a perfect day for swimming. I'm actually wearing shorts in public. That's how warm it is.Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-61616178380683011812011-06-29T19:25:00.000-07:002011-06-29T19:25:02.826-07:00Sarah Palin Jr.Today has been bizarre.<br />
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I was in a strange mood when I woke up today. Like... I was tired, and wanted to sleep, but at the same time I didn't want to be in bed and I wanted to go for a walk. School dragged by very slowly. We have our study guides for our final (eeesh, I can't believe it's already here) and we're going over them in class, so that means I have no homework. I've been having a strange argument with a friend of mine for about three days or so... I don't want to go into details.<br />
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I babysat today... and the kid kept throwing books in my lap and demanded that I read them, then she picked them up, ran off, ran laps around the couch, got the books, and the cycle repeated itself. I was hoping she would fall asleep and leave me alone, but I wasn't that lucky. I don't mind kids... I think they're adorable, but I don't trust myself around them and I can only stand them for so long. Also, the kid's mother is going out of town for a few months, and offered me a bunch of money if I take care of her dogs while she's away. I'm much better with dogs than I am with children (and adults), so I would be happy to.<br />
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Oh, and <i>Michele Bachman is running for president</i>. Can you believe it? Sarah Palin Jr wants to be president. And Sarah Palin is <i>still</i> thinking about running. Don't worry about it sweetheart... it's not like you're going to win anyway.<br />
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LMAO... what if the Republican Party candidates boil down to just Bachman and Palin? Oh gawd, that would be hilarious. I would pay lots of cash to see them in a political debate against each other. The only real differences between them is that Palin is from Alaska and Bachman can actually name a newspaper... I think.Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-56299760287521504582011-06-28T09:49:00.000-07:002011-06-28T09:49:15.249-07:00So very, very bored...I'm sitting in the computer lab at my school at the moment, being bored. We're supposed to be working on our stock projects... but I'm done for the day so I have nothing to do while the teacher is also messing around on the computer. It's funny, no one is working on anything academic. <br />
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The down side to having your hair cut really short: your neck is always cold. <br />
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I've been looking at publishing agents... which is funny, because I haven't completed anything worth sending in to one. I <em>have</em> started a novel though... but it's still very rough and unpresentable. Maybe, just maybe, I might actually finish this one. As much as I write, I've never stuck with a novel to the very end. The day I finish a novel will be the day the world ends...Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-17827000767846158752011-06-26T20:08:00.000-07:002011-06-26T20:08:20.792-07:00Chanters = EpicnessI must be cursed... these past two days have hell for me.<br />
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My e-mail was hacked and I lost $20 that was in my pocket when I went to buy milk and eggs for my mom. Ugh... I hate to think what tomorrow will be like.<br />
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I ditched PWI because the music was driving me insane, and I decided to play Aion until my subscription runs out. I'm starting fresh on a new server... because Zikel is a terrible server and all of the Asmos are lazy bums who have lame excuses for not attending sieges. Aion is built for PvP... you shouldn't be afraid of sieges, otherwise, you're better off playing a different game. I'm on Vaziel now, since some people spoke so highly of it. My chanter's name is... Ladynaga. It's a shame that some people don't get both references.<br />
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Unlike the current PWI, Aion has beautiful music. My favorite song would have to be Song of Moonlight:<br />
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I can't wait to do Kromede's Trail again... that quest is so amazing. It took me over and hour to complete on my old sorcerer, and it'll probably take even long on my chanter, but I still look forward to it. It has an amazing plot. You spent so much time hating Kromede in Fire Temple, because she's so damn strong... but then you learn her story. What's amazing is that during the quest, it's like you're having this dream where you actually <i>are</i> Kromede.<br />
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So, I'm going to the library to hopefully hunt down a copy of The Crucible. I have to read that before Sophmore year offically starts... I thought it would be about the Burning Times when I first heard the title and thought "oh wow, this should be interesting." But then my mom told me it's about family values... and I felt like vomitting on the carpet because is sounded incredibly boring. A friend of mine who started reading the book says that it talks about witchcraft, so that lifted my spirits a bit... it seems like every person I talk to about the book has something different to say and I don't know who to believe.<br />
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Lets see... I'm getting new shoes today, since the pair that I'm wearig is about ready to fall apart and the rest of them don't really fit me anymore. I'm also getting my hair cut and I'm eating out with my mom. <br />
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Yesterday... I accidently ate bacon. My mom got some food from Panera Bread and got me what I usually ate there... a turkey sandwich. I refused to eat it, but she just shrugged and said "fine, then you can go hungry today," so I ended up eating it anyway. She's been very concerned about my health lately... so that's why she bought me something with meat in it. She forgot to tell them not to put any bacon in the sandwich, so I had to pick it out. I thought I picked out all of the bacon, but there was still some left... I took a bite and thought "wow, this tastes odd..." (I didn't have bacon for about a year before hand) and then looked in the sandwich and realized I didn't take all of it out. Since it was such a small amount, it didn't make me sick... but I felt really bad about it and my stomach started cramping. I felt bad about eating the turkey too. Damn it, I STILL feel bad about it.Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-16773779706799014262011-06-22T17:18:00.000-07:002011-06-22T17:19:15.376-07:00These past couple of days...I found a local metaphysical store... or rather, by mom found it and told me about it. I bought a bunch of incense and some goddess cards. They had a tiny cauldron that was absolutely adorable, buuut it looks like I have to save my money lol. And they had SO MANY TAROT DECKS!! I was amazed at the selection they had in such a tiny little store. They also have some books about Buddhism and Hinduism... and some very expensive eastern statues. Oh, and crystals... shiny crystals... there's a reason why I don't have that many around, because I can stare at them for hours... because they're so shiny. What? I don't think I'm insane...<br />
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So, some violent storms swept through the area last night. It was fantastic in such a terrible way. The sky was incredibly dark and the wind was howling. Thankfully, we didn't get much damage out here... but a lot of people are without power, including a few kids in my Consumers Ed class. My mom locked me in the bathroom with the cat and dog while it was going on. We both felt really silly when it passed, and we poked around outside to see that no damage had been done, except for a few stray branches and leaves. <br />
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Oh, and once again, I have a cold... well, I'm not sure if it's a cold. It may be my allergies, which would be very odd. I didn't have a problem with them last year at all. I missed class yesterday too, because I slept through my alarm clock... I was just too exhausted to get out of bed.Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-27323893073360329842011-06-16T16:59:00.000-07:002011-06-16T16:59:12.345-07:00I'll miss you...I think my heart will split in two. My childhood is ending, ending, ending... I can feel it slipping away with every second that ticks by. Why, you ask? Why is this happening to me? Let me show you...<br />
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Oh, the scene with Lily and Harry at the beginning... gawd, I had to try so hard to keep myself from crying. This story was my childhood. Part of it died when I read the last line of book 7. It will die completely on the epilog of movie 7 pt 2. Harry... he's gone so far. He was a thought in Rowling's head on a train, and now... he's a character beloved by millions. He, and his creator, will go down in history as the childhood of most of a generation.Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-57697862491027056452011-06-15T19:20:00.000-07:002011-06-15T19:20:39.694-07:00UN Owen Was Her?Anyone who can play this... IS A LIVING GOD!!!<br />
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My Consumer's Ed class is... strange. We talked about the economy... and the national debt... and China... and Greece... and some other stuff... Just not your typical "OMG don't use credit cards!! nuuuu!!"<br />
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Yeah, not much to say today. My ritual was cancelled due to rain. Speaking of rain, I had to stand out in it for half an hour while I waited for the bus. My pants were soaked and my feet were wet the whole day. It was awful.Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-1265340701453827422011-06-14T12:51:00.000-07:002011-06-14T12:51:57.017-07:0010 of my favorite songsOnce again, not in any particular order...<br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=68xxI3az5BY&feature=channel_video_title">Tam Lin - Tricky Pixie</a><br />
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"Father, if I be with child, <br />
'twill prove a wondrous birth <br />
for well I swear it's not the get <br />
of any mortal man on earth."<br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G5sJozPBUB8">Your Star - Evanescence</a><br />
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"Nothing worth fighting for<br />
We're wandering now<br />
All in parts and pieces, swim lonely<br />
Find your own way out"<br />
<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5t8MbnWGcWc">Crownless - Nightwish</a><br />
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"Mine is the Earth and the sword in the stone<br />
Mine is the throne for the idol<br />
One fleeting moment and it is all gone"<br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NCiH7LAg7PE">Re-Education (Through Labor) - Rise Against</a><br />
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"I won't crawl on my knees for you<br />
I won't believe the lies that hide the truth<br />
I won't sweat one more drop for you"<br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jsyu34IxU_Y&feature=channel_video_title">Alive! - Omnia</a><br />
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"Hot like the sun<br />
Wet like the rain<br />
Green like the leaves<br />
Life is a game"<br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R5hwNhzMFgc">Fully Alive - Flyleaf</a><br />
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"Fully alive,<br />
More than most<br />
Ready to smile<br />
And love life." <br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=axjLaEkicvY">White Flag Warrior - Flobots feat. Tim Mcllrath</a><br />
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"We'd rather make our children <br />
(We request to negotiate)<br />
Martyrs then Murderers <br />
(We come to you unarmed)<br />
We'd rather make our children <br />
(We desire to communicate)<br />
White Flag Warriors!!" <br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HCI99p02ayU">My Last Breath - Evanescence </a><br />
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"Closing your eyes to disappear<br />
You pray your dreams will leave you here<br />
But still you wake and know the truth<br />
No one's there"<br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tKJkgawDfEk">All I Need - Within Temptation</a><br />
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"Don't tear me down<br />
For all I need<br />
Make my heart a better place<br />
Give me something I can believe" <br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gpeo1QR35vE&feature=channel_video_title">Broken Moon</a>Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-25276845971401342642011-06-12T20:20:00.000-07:002011-06-12T20:20:14.043-07:00Zenyatta!!!I want to be a jockey now... this looks awesome:<br />
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I miss horses so, so much... I used to horseback ride, but I can't afford lessons anymore. I also used to volunteer at the stables, too. The people I worked for were complete bitches... they sat in the air conditioned office while we worked out in the hot sun. It was worth it, though. I just loved being around the horses... there was this one mare named Lady who would use my head as a chin rest... she was so funny. And there was a gelding named Seymour who was terrible with pretty much every rider except me. Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-73400796212856429622011-06-11T21:57:00.000-07:002011-06-11T21:57:50.484-07:00Freshman YearYus, two posts in one day. I'm SO productive.<br />
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I guess that since my Freshman year is officially over now (that means I have to start calling myself a Sophomore now... that feels so awkward) I should put down some of my best memories from this year... to be honest, there aren't that many.<br />
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<ul><li>The awards ceremony on the last day of Orchestra. I won three of them... "Funniest Person" (how on earth did that happen?) "Best Artist" and "Most likely to succeed" (that made me laugh). Also, one of the girls got "Best Country Accent". As she stormed up to get her award, she yelled "I DON'T HAVE AN ACCENT!!" in a slightly obvious southern twang. </li>
</ul><ul><li>My CSO trip. Good Italian food, making an idiot of myself in Millennium Park, failing with a friend of mine in some grass, good music, and returning home with a good excuse to not do my English homework.</li>
</ul><ul><li>Homecoming game. I was sitting with my friends in some grass, and this dude walks over and puts his arm around me. I glare at him and say "dude, I've never seen you before in my life." and he walks away with a lobster red face. We were giggling about it for the remainder of the game. I also told them some horror stories... we left before the game actually ended, because we were getting our asses kicked. Hard. </li>
</ul><ul><li> Holiday party 2B before Winter Break. I got a sugar high in public. If you haven't seen me with a sugar high, be thankful that you haven't.</li>
</ul><ul><li>NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month). You basically try to write a 50k word story in a month. I didn't make it, but my friend Hillary and I went to some write-ins at Borders and it was amazing. </li>
</ul><ul><li>Surprisingly, my birthday. My birthdays usually suck and I always end up with a nasty cold. That day wasn't an exception... the cold part, anyway. I couldn't go two minutes without having to wipe off the snot that was pouring from my nose like a faucet. My mom wanted to take me to this new restaurant, but we couldn't find it. So, we showed up at Olive Garden severely under dressed. The food was great. Then we went to a small concert at Harper collage. Two classical guitarists were playing and they were so fun to listen to. I returned home with a 101 fever and my speech was barely legible behind the snot and sore throat. </li>
</ul><ul><li> Poetry Slam. Some of the kids at my school are amazingly talented... listening to their poems was very enjoyable. </li>
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Yeah, that's it... Freshman year wasn't so bad. It was better than 8th grade at least... and that was arguably the worst year of my life. Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-87032454906683446522011-06-11T20:55:00.000-07:002011-06-11T20:57:05.495-07:00NERD RAGESo, I've started playing PWI again. They have a new race and two new classes now, but I had no interest in trying them. I went back to my old Venomancer.<br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Yeah, apparently they're giving away epic gear now... but it only lasts for 19 days. What's the point of that? You get used to having a good defense (except for me... cuz I'm a squishy) and then it just disappears. "Oh, sorry, you have to buy new gear now... buy some random items that you have to buy with real money from our item mall, and sell them for ridiculously high prices... so you can afford to craft gear that's just as good..." ... Nevermind, I see the point now. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">THEY CHANGED ALL OF THE MUSIC NOW. GARRRR. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">It used a variety of songs that were mysterious and epic... now it's just the same annoying song over, and over, and over, and over... everywhere you go, it's the same song. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I understand that games need to make progress... but I really, really miss the original version... when there were three races and six classes. THAT was what I fell in love with (but then I found out about Rohan and I was like "ha, screw this"). The Tideborn look a bit lame and the trailer for their patch scared me. The Earthguard look pretty cool, and the Genesis trailer was epic... but I don't feel that they bring anything valuable to the story. The existence of the Tideborn and Earthguard just ruin the original story. Pangu made THREE races... not six, THREE. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XN2FrUUq-zI&feature=related">Ready To Fall - Rise Against</a><br />
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"Every action has a reaction. We have one planet, and one chance"<br />
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"The measure of society can be how well its people treat its animals" ~ Gandhi <br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HLUX0y4EptA">Handlebars - Flobots</a><br />
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"Dictatorship naturally rises out of democracy, and the most aggravated form of tyranny and slavery out of the most extreme liberty" ~ Plato<br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kw2Ic_2XdVQ">Good Enough - Evanescence</a><br />
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"When you go through a tragedy, you can either let that destroy you and you become bitter and never let that go, or you can let it make you stronger and let it make you grow. And that's what I did." ~ Amy Lee<br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JHiqGqoIGII&feature=channel_video_title">Help Is On The Way - Rise Against</a><br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lSmmM5NdW88&feature=channel_video_title">Don't Stop - Innerpartysystem</a><br />
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"What is fame? The advantage of being known by people of whom you yourself know nothing, and for whom you care as little." ~ Lord Byron <br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oEIvlihb2Ms">Utopia - Within Temptation </a><br />
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"Man is the only creature that refuses to be what he is." ~ Albert Camus <br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_DboMAghWcA&feature=channel_video_title">Hero Of War - Rise Against</a><br />
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"The tragedy of war is that it uses man's best to do man's worst." ~ Harry Emerson Fosdick Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-30956042152297143592011-06-09T16:48:00.000-07:002011-06-09T16:48:50.842-07:00Make up your mind, Nature...GAAAAHHH!! I can't take the weather any more!! First it was unseasonably cold for about a week, then it was unseasonably hot... now it's back to unseasonably cold again. My computer says it's 51 outside. Yesterday, it was in the 80's. *facedesk*<br />
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My English final sucked because it was too easy, which probably means I failed it. My Algebra final sucked because it confused me, which probably means I passed with flying colors. Tomorrow I have my World History final, and then I'm free of school until Wednesday.<br />
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Still haven't been doing that much writing lately... that needs to change.Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-8103900840116123752011-06-08T15:28:00.000-07:002011-06-08T15:28:32.244-07:00Art teachers are scary...First day of finals. I didn't have one 1st block... I could've slept in, but we don't have a working car and I wasn't sure if there would be a bus before 2nd block. So, I hung out in the library, studied and wasted some time on the internet. 2nd block was my Biology final... I have a feeling that I failed it. Aaaand 3rd block was my Art + Design final.<br />
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3rd block was weird. I left my independent project on the teacher's desk, and when he walked in, he looked at it and yelled "WHOSE IS THIS!!".<br />
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Me: "Uhh... mine?"<br />
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Teacher: "... it's beautiful..." <br />
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Then everyone wanted to see it. He also kept it so he can put it on display next year. I honestly don't know what to think. Yes, I put a lot of effort into it. No, I don't think it's worthy of being put on display. But oh well, I guess it was worth something, since my Art teacher is very hard to please.Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-29310179706120643082011-06-07T16:21:00.000-07:002011-06-07T16:21:30.916-07:00Death is a bitch... a stupid, stupid bitchI've been under a lot of stress lately, so I've been shying away from the sad and depressing things I usually involve myself with, and surround myself with happy things... or, things I could consider to be happy. Gloating about how superior Harry Potter is to Twilight happens to be one of them.<br />
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I also haven't gotten that much writing done, which I need to do... I promised my small circle of readers on ff.net that I'll post weekly now.<br />
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My sad, sad mind has been hanging on to one depressing thought lately, though. And that would be war.<br />
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Some of them in history were, in fact, necessary. The French and American Revolutions and some of the battles in WW2... but silly things like Vietnam, Iraq and who knows how many old wars fought purely over territory or bragging rights... that's just idiotic. Life is such a valuable thing... and we're all the same in so many ways. We all understand physical and emotional pain, and are capable of feeling it. We're all human. We all have similar needs. It goes beyond just humans, too. Animals... even trees. Not many can see or even bother to look, but with every decision we make, we impact something else. The death of one human could be the suffering of so many others. And the same applies to all living things.Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-40034190077248435362011-06-06T15:50:00.000-07:002011-06-06T15:50:16.306-07:00THE POPCORN IS MINE!!Twilight won the MTV movie awards. Are you effin kidding me. It was rigged!! RIGGED I TELL YOU!!<br />
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I would have been happy if Harry Potter won, but Black Swan was the one I was voting for. To those of you who haven't seen it, if you can get past the sex, it's a wonderful movie.<br />
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Oh, and little miss Kristen won Best Performance.... *facepalm* I'm not even going to comment on that, the idiocy speaks for itself. It was quite entertaining, though. First, Kristen was like: <br />
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And then Emma Watson was all: <br />
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Emma has every right to give her the evil death glare of doom. She can act rings around that chick.Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-62907074678242084962011-06-05T13:22:00.000-07:002011-06-05T13:22:14.489-07:00MIND RAPEHang on... just let me get my thoughts in order here...<br />
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No... I don't have to. Just watch:<br />
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... Yes, the new IMNOTASPARKLEFAIRYIMAFRIGGINVAMPIRE movie trailer is out...<br />
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BWUAHAHAHA!!! They're trying WAY too hard.<br />
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"Oh yay!! Me and Edward are married!!" "... I'm pregnant. THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE!!"<br />
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I have nothing against you if you like Twilight, so please don't be angry with me... but... HOW? How is that possibly entertaining? I fell asleep watching the 1st movie and I'm too terrified that my brain will be raped if I watch the other two. It's a complete disgrace to paranormal romance...Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-69593786592765317782011-06-04T19:01:00.000-07:002011-06-04T19:01:09.835-07:00Leave at once, punny humanSo, I was going to walk over to the trail by the forest preserve today. I had a water bottle and some snacks packed, and practically bathed in sunscreen (I don't tan that well... I just burn), so I was ready for a nice long walk. I walked a quarter of a mile before I was like "oh my gawd... it's so hot out here..." so I wandered in the nicely shaded areas around my apartment complex instead. I took some pretty cool pictures too. A red-winged black bird was nice enough to grace me with his presence... I must have been intruding on his territory, because he kept squawking at me and flying in circles while I was taking pictures of him. I would upload them if I could, but my computer is stoooopid and doesn't read my camera when I plug it in. <br />
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I was able to get a little bit of meditating in, too. The black bird continued to squawk at me for half of it, which was quite distracting. When I got out my granola, a dove poked its head out of the grass and stared at me for a long time... I would have offered it some, but there was some chocolate mixed in there, and I didn't want to make it sick.<br />
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Overall, it was a nice day. I need to spend more time outdoors.Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4861765388917348996.post-43076975809033188482011-06-03T20:39:00.000-07:002011-06-03T20:39:07.055-07:00Beauty is always found withinI see beauty in things that no one else can see. Music, art, literature... and people. Especially people. The tragic thing is, though, is that they can't see it within themselves. So when I tell them what I see, they don't believe me. And when I tell them, they cover themselves in the darkest cloak of hatred and nastiness to drive me away. And I feel so... helpless... like I failed in them. I failed to help them help themselves. You have no idea how much that hurts.<br />
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I'm incredibly stressed out right now. Finals are next week and I'm NOT ready. Then, 5 days after my last exam, it's time for summer school. Why, why did I sign up for six more weeks of torture?Juliehbearrrhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12583276134184432580noreply@blogger.com0